I had only one full day off this week i had lots of errands to run, just basic day to day stuff. And had one unrelenting thought in the back of my mind: i have to stop or at least slow down and enjoy this sunny day with yellow leaves, i will be locked in an office for the next five days. Maybe go for a walk, aimlessly. But i realized i am waiting for this moment and delaying it endlessly into the future as the little to-dos pile up – just to never experience it fully. this thought connected somehow to what i read in Dan Millman’s book recently: dynamic relaxation. The ability to feel relaxed in the process of doing something. And naturally, relaxation leads to the ability to be here now, notice little things, and, essentially, enjoy life. This is the skill i need, badly, mainly because life will not wait on you/or me. It keeps going, and if i don’t make a special effort to be aware in the moment, it will slip away as it has been. Maybe there’s nothing new in the concept of “stop to smell the roses”, but i feel i might be onto something with this.
Another thing that has occured to me soon after the previous paragraph was written – sort of an advice from my subconcscious – one thing at a time. Being so caught up in to-do lists and multitasking, it’s hard to concentrate on the task at hand – brain keeps running ahead of itself, thus stealing the ultimate concentration and awareness of whatever the process going on might be.